delphinus

2011-07-11T01:51:00.014+08:00

We've come a long way, from where we had started. We'd overcame obstacles, braced through the bumy roads, supported each other in times of happiness and sadness, being there for one another, living in a world that belongs to 'us'.

You taught me love. You taught me patience. You taught me relationships lessons .

You took great care of me, always ensuring that I'm in great comfort, always brightenining up my days with laughter.

Sometimes, you brought me unhappiness, disappointments. But other times, you brought me bliss, joy, fun, laughter, and happiness....

I think I have the best boyfriend in the world who always shower me with lots of love and care, pamper me with good food, and loves me with all his heart.

I'm thankful to have met and fallen in love with you. Thank you for being such a wonderful boyfriend, Yi Yi.

You will always be my endless love, the one whom I want to live my life with...

I LOVE YOU! <3

2011-02-23T23:29:00.002+08:00

The right guy will never leave you.

2011-02-13T02:14:00.006+08:00

I seriously hate being in love.

Love can fly you high up to the skies, and throw you hard on the solid ground. It pains me alot of times, when my heart is going through a series of turmoil. It had hurt me emotionally, and a really deep one. I'm waiting for the day my heart will just surrender and give up on love. And it'll just tell me: " Hui Ying, the torture is over. =) "

如果他是我的命运，不管再几次从来，结果都会是一样的.

2011-02-06T23:50:00.001+08:00

If u love the sun, you have to put up with the rain. :)

2011-01-27T21:58:00.005+08:00

Dedicated to my 2 beloved Best Friend Forever ...

I am thankful that god sent 2 angels to be around me, to share my joys and sorrows together, to cheer me up when I'm down, to guide me through in life whenever I'm lost, to enlighten me whenever I felt helpless, to encourage and motivate me when I felt like giving up...

他们总是让我觉凡事都有解决的办法.. 只要用乐观的态度地去面对，一切都能变得很完美

亲爱的朋友们..... thank you for everything !!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

2011-01-24T23:39:00.003+08:00

I believe...

If I work hard enough, I can reap the sow of my seeds, and make a full harvest... So, I'm going to set aside the failure, learn from my mistakes, stand up on my feet again, and do my best....

因为我相信: 皇天不负有心人 :)

2011-01-21T23:54:00.003+08:00

My dear mei, kaiyuan told me that she looked up to me as her inspiration all along, and she was shocked to see those emotional posts that were written by me previously.

Well, I guess that's life. There are many potholes in the road of life, and now it's just my turn to learn to fix the problem, to build a smoother road ahead........
No matter how opticmistic or jovial a person can be, he/she will have their dark sides, there will still be times where they will breakdown, times where they will disappoint you when they fail to live up to the perfection in your eyes - just because they are human after all.

This holiday, I've seen through alot of things... I've met, overcomed, and learned from the obstacles... A fruitful, meaningful vacation indeed!

The endless sleepless nights cycle is here again..

" Don't go the way life takes you. Take the life the way you go."

2011-01-16T01:06:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I can't help but wonder...

Why am I putting up with all these? Is it worth it? Am I making the right choice for myself ? There is not a single week I am freed from the unhappiness within...... There are many times I want to flare up and really turn the tables around, but I chose not to.
I know that no one is perfect, and when we love a person, we have to accept for he/she is. But, why are we often being taken for granted/why do we always take people for granted?

I am getting tired of everything... I tried my best to change, to compromise, but people don't even appreciate it at all. I just want to be loved and appreciated. Is it so hard?

2011-01-04T11:57:00.001+08:00

I am not okay today, and I might not be tomorrow, but I'm going to try alot harder from now on. I don't want to feel this way anymore; I don't want this sadness that has tangled around my heart.

惠莹: "Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending. "

2010-12-30T13:23:00.001+08:00

Too many times we put our hearts on the line, hoping that this time, things are going to be different. And too many times, we play the waiting game because we are too afraid of making decisions.

2010-12-26T23:15:00.000+08:00

2010-12-26T23:10:00.001+08:00

人世间情为何物？

SIGH SIGH SIGH

Can someone PLEASE buy me a bottle of 忘情水？=D

2010-11-28T04:31:00.001+08:00

I abhor to be taken for granted !

2010-11-22T01:57:00.004+08:00

Apart from the last three years in my polytechnic days, I've never felt so down, so diappointed with myself.

Sigh.

I hope this is the last wake-up-call for me.

2010-11-15T01:03:00.000+08:00

2010-11-01T23:46:00.003+08:00

No matter how hard you try to seal up the fissures, a broken vase, will always remain "shattered". The disfigurement had been imprinted on the vase. Nothing can ever change it.

2010-10-17T04:25:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I just miss my singlehood times, those carefree and lighthearted days, where I lived everyday with an air of nonchalance. There are no boundaries, and really nothing. You rule the center of your world. You can do whatever things you want, you liked, without any restrictions. You have the final say.
But well, I’m definitely not lamenting on being attached, but at some point of time, you will stop to look back, and relish the past…

Speaking from the bottom of my heart, I felt rather upset and disappointed today. I may be acting too paranoid, but the bottom line is that I fear that history might repeat itself again. I don’t want to undergo that painful process of parting. I can’t undertake that sense of loss. But I chose not to bring up this issue, considering on the fact that we can definitely save those “quarrels” (maybe) on mugging instead because our mid-terms are just round the corner. As much as I told myself not to think too much, I can’t help, but felt a twinge in my heart.

And then, the positive self-talk begins…..

"Dear sharon, you have to trust him ever since the day you embark on this love journey together. Hold on to that leap of faith, and everything will go on smoothly... Cheer up, angelic princess! "

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

And I hope I am just being too paranoid.

2010-10-10T23:13:00.001+08:00

The first chapter of our book started a month ago on this special day. The days that I had spent with u are always so sweet, lovely and memorable. I couldn't had imagine how mundane my life would have been if I hadn't met you. Thank you, my love for everything.

Happy 1st month anniversary! Je'taime! ♥ ♥ ♥

2010-10-04T00:49:00.002+08:00

DEDICATED TO MY BELOVED JUN YI:

HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY SWEETHEART !!
May all your days be filled with fun, joy, love and happiness!
Je'taime! ♥♥♥

2010-10-01T02:12:00.002+08:00

Life had been hectic ever since school starts. Gone are my carefree days of fun, joy, and laughter, where the pile of schoolwork intensifies the stress level gravely. I am like a drowning person, constantly lifting up my head to grasp for more air, reaching out my hand for help, hoping that someone will come to my rescue.
Lab reports are my food for almost every day. My stomach is filled up just by rushing for the deadline. My mind is like mentally-drained to even think of anything else, and I will never have enought time to replenish my beauty sleep.

SIGH................

But anyway, I guess life is just like a sine curve. It is good to be at the peak, yet it’s inevitable that at some point of time, you will reach the bottom. I think I am at the centre line now. It’s time to do something about it before it reaches the pit. :)

2010-09-03T09:02:00.000+08:00

" A resolute determination is the truest wisdom."

Sometimes, when everyone doubts you, you have to stand up and fight for your belief. You have to prove them wrong, by demonstrating your capability. You have to be firm and strong, and not let any factor deter your vision to succeed. You have to hold a resilient mind, for it will be your pillar of support. Hold on to the faith you had in yourself, because you know you can definitely do it.

2010-08-26T12:57:00.004+08:00

“ The pearly treasures of the sea
The lights that spatters heaven above,
More precious than these wonders are
My heart-of-heart filled with your love. ” - Heinrich Heime

2010-08-14T00:06:00.000+08:00

2010-08-07T18:22:00.002+08:00

I had a supherb week, seriously.
Thank you to the special one whom bought love into my world.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2010-08-01T14:52:00.002+08:00

One day...

when I’m like 30, I’m going to log onto my blogger, who knows how long it’ll be by then, and read all of my posts.

Every single one.

And I’m probably gonna either laugh at how ridiculous I was, or cry because I’ll never be this young and naive again! :)

2010-07-25T12:18:00.004+08:00

SUPREMES 2010/2011 FOC CAMP WAS SERIOUSLY AWESOME!

IT'S THE BEST CAMP I'd EVER JOINED!

MY OG, SIRIUS, IS THE BEST OG I'd EVER HAD!

CHEERS TO THE BEST OG ! XD

你真的很不错，你真的很不错
你上上下下左左右右前前后后里里外外
真的真的真的真的真的
很不错！

2010-06-30T20:52:00.004+08:00

SHARON IS CELEBRATING HER 2 YEARS OF SINGLEHOOD TODAY!

AND...................

HOPEFULLY FOR ANOTHER 3-4 MORE YEARS TOO!!

CHEERS!!! (",)

2010-06-29T20:31:00.000+08:00

" When we were little, life worked perfectly. No matter what happened, everything turned out alright in the end. Scraped knees, cancelled play dates, dropped ice cream cones. We would cry for a short time, but by the end of the day, everything would be perfect. And now as we’ve grown older, we’ve lost the faith as we stumble through each day, crying over broken hearts, lost friendships, and lost dreams. It seems like life and perfection have turned their backs on us, but really its just that we’ve grown up. As children we didn’t pay attention to such details about our daily lives, but now we are more aware and little details seem to be amplifying our pain. But just remember that when we were younger, life was hard too, but we had faith in perfection because we could look past faults.

So, don’t lose your faith. Learn to know that each day will pass, each heartache will be mended, and everything will be perfect in the end. Just keep your faith. "

2010-06-25T13:53:00.003+08:00

As we turn older, birthdays become more like pit-stops, markings which highlight different junctures of our life at constant intervals, telling us to stop and have a rethink.

To me, birthdays have become more like yardsticks; yardsticks to measure love, value, maturity, intelligence, wisdom, success, achievements, accomplishments, dreams, and importance of the people around you.

I had grown the 20th yardstick today.

生日快乐，惠莹！=)

2010-06-10T18:40:00.002+08:00

I have finally liberated from Citygas! No more facing of BITCH, no more being under her control, no more putting a mask to work everday! It calls for a celebration !!

I had never felt so happy before for the past two months. I can even smile while in my dreams now.

People, let me advise you:

PLEASE DON'T EVER WORK IN CITYGAS GALLERY UNLESS YOU WOULD WANT SOME GRUELSOME TRAINING IN OFFICE POLITICS. :)

2010-05-21T23:43:00.021+08:00

3 years ago, all of us were enrolled to this course; in strive for a common goal – to graduate with a diploma in electronics, computer and communications engineering.
3 years later, all of us were in the gown attire, waiting anxiously for our turn as we queued up to received the diploma on the stage.

In my three years of polytechnic life, I experienced many obstacles, ordeals that I never once experienced in my peaceful secondary days. They said one will only learn how to become stronger when he/she are put to the trial. Indeed, the Chinese saying, “ 跌倒了，再爬起来”has clearly defined its meaning. Stand up on your feet back again, whenever you take a fall.
There were several unhappiness and disputes within classmates, lecture mates. Some were resolved, while some were hanging halfway in the air. Some wanted to put me down, Some were cursing and swelling, hoping that I would 'die'. Whatever it is, graduation marks a full-stop to the end of everything, to the end of unhappiness and sorrows with some people. However, I would like to take a big bow to these people. I would like to extend my heartfelt gratitude to them, because they gave me a huge driving force and motivation to forge stronger and to do well in my studies. Had it not been them, I would not have forced myself to proof that I am unbeatable, no matter whatever challenges that come in my way.
Besides, I was also thankful that my parents came to the objection of my relationship 2 years back. Had it not been them, I might had lost myself, lost my focus in life. Perhaps it's all to be fated.
I am now awaiting for my further studies at Nanyang Technological University. I have achieved my goal for now. Have you?

As much as unhappiness was faced in my polytechnic life, I am still thankful that god sent several guardian angels down me to guide and help me whenever I am in difficulty. The fun and memorable times we had will always be marked deeply in my heart. As the graduation ceremony ended yesterday, I felt a twinge in my heart. I will definitely miss the good old times I had with all my course mates.

Congratulations to the class of 2010! No matter whatever paths you may take, I wish you all the very best in your future endeavors.

DECCE Class of 2010

2010-05-12T21:37:00.002+08:00

Last night, I took bus service no. 88 back home. Yes, it was an intentional decision. I wanted to recapture the memories, the kind of eagerness, enthusiasm I used to built up in me when I report to work every day. It was a very significant and memorable industrial attachment for me. My mind pictured the daily office scenarios; meetings, mini discussions, lunch breaks, hot updates, gossips, running errands everywhere, fun, laughter, as the bus went past the building. Then, my heart sank. Though I could not turn time back to experience it again, the memories I had in SSMC will always be deeply engraved in my heart wherever I go. :)

2010-05-05T00:58:00.002+08:00

When I first step in to work, Someone* told me to speak up and ASK QUESTIONS whenever I am in doubt. (I am a green horn in the company, therefore more guidance is required.)

A month later.....

Me: " Someone*, how do I handle this situation ........... ? "

Someone* : " Sharon, when we teach, you must learn. You must know how to handle customers. You must know our products at the tip of your hands. "

Me: *roll eyes and walk away (with a obliging smile, but deeply cursing in my heart *

1. How do you expect me to learn when you did not even give me a full and proper training ? How do you expect me to learn to be firm and get used to customer service when you forbid me to sit at the counter? How do you expect me to stand up on my feet independently when you do not give me an opportunity to do so? How do you expect me to perform well if you hinder my progress of learning?

2. Being faced with confusion, what do you expect me to do if I am not encouraged to ask too much questions? In the event of any mistakes, who is going to take up the responsibility? How will I learn from my lessons if I don't ask?

3. When I don't ask, I was encouraged to ask. When I ask, I got ticked off. What do you want?

Someone*, please do me a favour by slapping yourself in the face.

2010-05-04T01:32:00.002+08:00

As time goes, a chinese idiom will fully describe how I feel:

心灰意冷

2010-04-29T13:46:00.005+08:00

I finally stepped back to Nanyang Polytechnic, after it seemed like eternity. There were pretty much changes in school. The South Canteen located at Blk P went through a huge transformation. From an unsightly, filthy and old canteen, it is now a beautiful, stylish, brand new cafeteria. The management team has finally made some wise decisions in turning the used-to-be canteen to a cafeteria which is convenient and conducive for students to eat and study at the same time. Brilliant! (I’m so sorry, that I missed taking some snapshots of the beautifully-renovated place!)
Also, the link way from Blk P to Blk R on level 4 was stipulated with like benches from wall to wall. It is definitely a great idea for people to unwind and take in a deep breath in the midst of studies/work. Thumbs-up!
Besides, there was this rock-climbing facility located on the ground somewhere between Blk L and R. The adventure team probably couldn’t get enough of it!

Anyway, I went back for the Director’s List Tea Reception that was held every semester. It is my second time being honored this award. My hard work of recognition has finally being documented to a rewarding certificate. This award comes with painstaking hard work, perseverance, patience, time, and the strength of mind. Well-done Sharon! =)

Lastly, congratulations to all my classmates/lecture mates/school mates who are being awarded to the "Hall of Fame" !

2010-04-24T20:29:00.003+08:00

David, section manager of Diffusion/WET offered me a position as an Associate Engineer in Silicon on Systems Manufacturing Co. Pte. Ltd. I was so touched and felt recognised for the fact that he appreciates me for my contribution during my attachment days back then. He probably feels that I have the talent to join the WET family!

However, much to his dismal, I rejected the offer very unwillingly because I have to pursue my studies in Nanyang Technological University. In life, there are too many chocies to choose, too many paths to take. We just have to make the right judgement, the decision that will benefit us in the long run. Though I missed the good opportunity to continue working with WET, I believe a promising future awaits me, when I come back with a degree three years later.

David: Sorry, but thank you so much, for the consideration.

2010-04-22T20:22:00.000+08:00

I was greeted by a good-yet-not-so-good news when I came home last week. I opened a letter from Nanyang Technological University (NTU) with much anticipation, only to find out that I was accepted to my fourth choice among my options of courses.

Dear Hui Ying

Congratulatios! The University Admissions Selection Committee has approved your application for admission to the Nanyang Technological University (NTU) to read the following programme in academic year 2010-11, which commences on 30 August 2010:

Physics/Applied Physics

Please indicate your acceptance of our offer at the following website between 8 April and 1 June 2010.

I look forward to your enrollment in NTU and towards working closely with you to help you achieve your goals and aspirations or the future. Welcome on board!

Yours sincerely

Dr Lalit Goel, PhD
Professor & Dean of Admissions

Anyway, I will submit an appeal to Materials Engineering when the appeal application is open. I want to pursue a degree of my interest. No more boring lectures, theories! I want material science!

2010-04-11T22:10:00.000+08:00

2010-04-06T22:40:00.003+08:00

My first day of a temporary customer service officer at City gas gallery went well. Besides attending the “orientation”, the day was mostly spent lazing around in the tiny, squarish yet cosy office. There were indeed many paper work, administrative issues to pick up. On top of that, my duties are extended to that of a sales promoter. I am expected to know the house-brand products on the tip of my hands when customers make an enquiry of it. That sums it up for the amount of $48.75 I earned daily.
Somehow, I just missed my industrial attachment days in SSMC, missed the daily-reports-routine, missed my lovely seat, missed those little breaks we would have, missed my colleagues, missed my supherb supervisor, missed the joy, fun, laughter we shared for the 6 months.

Then, a reflection strucked me.

When embarking on a vacation, we look forward to the new adventures, look forward to an experience of a whole new environment, look forward to adapting the different cultures and values, look forward to the thrill, excitement and fun. Then, we let our hair down and plunge ourselves in the merriment of a holiday! Before we know, it is time to leave. The enjoyment, excitement, amusement stops. Memories, remembrances were all that were left in our hearts. This principle brought me back to life, a journey full of arrivals and departures.

How will the next 13 weeks of “vacation” at CityGas be for me? I am anticipating….

2010-04-03T22:14:00.000+08:00

Thought of the day:

张信哲- 从开始到现在

2010-03-30T10:34:00.002+08:00

从开始到现在 - 张信哲

如果这最后的结局
为何我还忘不了你
时间改变了我们告别了单纯
如果重逢也无法继续失去才算是永恒
惩罚我的认真是我太过天真
难道我就这样过我的一生
我的吻注定吻不到最爱的人
为你等从一开始盼到现在
也同样落的不可能
难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认
你是我不该爱的人

如果再见是为了再分
失去才算是永恒
一次新的记忆为何还要再生
拿什么作证
从未想过爱一个人
需要那么残忍才证明爱的深
难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认
你是我爱错了的人

2010-03-27T01:43:00.007+08:00

thank you for everything. =)

2010-03-24T12:50:00.002+08:00

有相聚，就有离别。
谢谢你们在这个六个月所带给我的欢乐；那些在公司里的美好时光。
All the best in your future endeavours.

有缘再相见...

2010-03-20T19:15:00.007+08:00

Dear Iceman,

当你看完这封信后，你可能不会有任何的感触，又或者这些纸对你而言只不过是些废纸，但我只想传达一直以来无法向你清口说出的心里话。

有人曾经说过：“人生或爱情里，更本一直也不满了一个一个车站、机场和渡头，上演着相距和离别。只是我们太快乐了，不知道每一场相聚是离别的开始。”
离别总是伤感的。我不喜欢离别的剧场，因为一次次的离别往往随着一次次的痛苦。可是，如果没有离别的苦，哪来重聚的欢？我相信这就是人生的无奈。

From the first moment I set my eyes on you, I felt as if we had known each other a long time ago. You gave me a special kind of feeling, something that can never be explained. I was glad that I was forced to take part in the badminton tournament, because that is where our first encounter was. Our first “date” at the beach was an unforgettable one, because it was something which paints a smile in my heart, a memory that will stay in me for a lifetime.

Being able to see you makes me look forward to work each day. You are like the sunshine that bright up my life, the rainbow that colors my world. You brought love, hope and faith into my life. I particularly enjoy talking to you. I relished the times when I shared my joys and sorrows with you, missed the days we chatted, laughed, and had fun together in the office. If only we could still go back to the good old days….

可是，为什么快乐时光总是那么短暂?

我总是怀念你当初对我的亲切，怀念的是一起度过的时光，怀念的是每晚期待你的简讯，怀念的是坐在你车里的那种幸福。我最怀念的，是那么想念你的滋味。你呢？是否曾经有想念我？

我不了解为什么现在的我们那么冷漠，彼此的距离越来越遥远。你在避开我吗？其实我感到非常地难过。每当发简讯给你时，我总是充满着希望，期待我们下一次的约会。但当你拒绝我的时候，心里总是沉甸甸的。我了解你是个大忙人，所以我不怪你。只是，为我们之间所存的各种障碍而感到惋惜。

我知道我对你来说也许太年轻，不是你的理想对象。我们之间存在着许多波折，又有着对人生不一样的观念。我知道我们的思想都向往着不同的方，也过着与彼此不一样的生活。你已踏入社会工作，正在努力地赚钱养家。而我会继续念书，过着一个学生的日子。我不适合你，你也可能不适合我。哪怕只是一场不会有结局的单恋，我还是做了些无聊的事，希望有一天会打动你冰冷的心。最后，只把自己搞到伤痕累累。很傻吧？虽然如此，我没有感到一丝的后悔，因为这是我的选择。

" 任何决定要的就不要放手，包括在乎的人" There is no love without tears, and no happiness without sacrifice.

In the past, I was too self-centered. I took things for granted. I had always thought everything will just come my way, and problems will have its way out eventually. When I finally realized my mistake, it was all too late. Then, we were fated to cross each other’s paths in life. When I met you, I told myself that I will not repeat my mistake again. I have to fight for my own happiness. So, I took on the courage to light up the spark. It was probably the first time I fell so deeply into the sandstorms of love, the first attempt in the pursuit of love and happiness.

I chose not to fall in love because the sense of loss is too much for me to undertake. I had always thought that I can be independent just by being alone. My life will still be complete with kinship and friendship. But for some reasons, you just changed me, changed my entire life. I had never believed an egotistic and obstinate person that I used to be would actually be defeated by love.

原来，人们还是害怕孤单，还是渴望爱情的。

Sometimes, I would go back to the places we had been, and reminisce the wonderful times, the unforgettable memory we’d had together. They simply make me smile even on my bad days.

回忆总是永恒的美好。

Anyway, I believe everyone enters our life for a purpose, because each one of them has a unique lesson to teach us. Thank you for entering my life, because you had taught me many valuable life lessons throughout my life journey. Thank you for bringing me an experience of love. Thank you for teaching something that I have never done. Thank you for giving me an unbelievable amount of joy. Thank you for coming to share, to grow and to learn with me. It may be a short lesson, but the valuable learning points I had acquired will always be the light that guides me along the voyage of life.

谢谢你，让我拎误了许多人生的道理。我相信这次的挫折将会锻炼出一个更坚强的自己。希望你能找到你的晴天，那个将会照亮你的生命的太阳。

One day, when the story of my life is finally over, I will flip open one of the most colorful and memorable chapter I’d had, and it starts with the moment I met you.

" 我不会忘记爱与被爱的每一个时刻，这些逝失的日子也曾照亮我们的生命。爱情是一种微笑的荒凉 "

Till we meet again,

Sharon

2010-02-20T16:49:00.004+08:00

人生或爱情里，更本一直也不满了一个一个车站、机场和渡头，上演着相距和离别。只是我们太快乐了，不知道每一场相聚是离别的开始

Departures are usually bitter. However, it is also a beginning to another pathway, to a new chapter of life. Today marks the end of the Industrial Attachment Program (IAP) for all NYP students who were attached Systems on Silicon Manufacturing Co. Pte. Ltd. Throughout the 24 weeks of IAP, I had acquired and enriched myself with some technical knowledge of my job scope. I had sharpened my interpersonal and communication skills. I had met new people and made new friends.

Though my IA was extended for one more month, I felt a twinge in my heart when the other of my IA mates left the company. We used to visit each other in the office, used to having chit-chatting sessions in the pantry, used to have lunch together, used to meeting in canteen for afternoon breaks, used to going home together, used to having so much joy, fun, laughter. It had been a routine for the past six months. Then, it just ends. I am still learning to adapt with the changes.

Thank you for the memorable times, for everything! =)

2010-01-23T23:57:00.002+08:00

Thanks for the company today.
Thanks for filling up my empty heart.
Thanks for cheering me up.
Thanks for making my day.
Thanks for everything, N!

2010-01-01T22:55:00.013+08:00

As the new year flows in, may we soar even higher, reach greater heights and find happiness in everything we do. May it beacon to greater joys for all of us!

Happy New Year 2010 !

2009-12-29T22:49:00.001+08:00

2009 was a year filled with beam s of joy, tears of grief, frowns of frustration, sulk of anger and gratification of success. Most significantly, the blossoms of love found its way to my garden of existence towards the last quarter of the year. I met a special someone whom I will never forget in the years to come.
As the year comes to an end, I begin to count my blessings for things that had made my 2009 a joyful, fulfilling and victorious year for me.

1. My family – Thanks for being my loyal and dedicated “fans”, for loving me unconditionally, and giving utmost support in whatever I do.

2. My friends – Thanks for being my all-weathered friend, for caring and sharing with me, for being there for me when I am down in my spirits, for all the entertainment, joy and fun you had brought to me.

3. My lecturers/teacher – Thanks for instilling faith and hope in me, for guiding me through in my studies, for motivating whenever I felt like giving up.

4. My colleagues – Thanks for the little things that you did to bright up my day. Be it a candy, a joke, a passing remark or a compliment, they are my source of joys on moody days.

5. Iceman – Thanks for entering my life with love, hope, faith and joy. Thanks for making this 2009 a great and memorable year for me.

2009-12-26T20:05:00.010+08:00

Merry Christmas 2009

2009-12-19T19:00:00.000+08:00

Taiwan is an ideal travel destination for its good food, beautiful ocean, and stupendous mountains. On top of it, it's a shopping paradise which offers cheap and quality stuffs. Spending 8 days in Taiwan is simply not enough for me! Below are the some of the places we went:

2009-12-19T18:48:00.000+08:00

These are some of the things we bought:

2009-12-02T23:38:00.000+08:00

Life is difficult. If it was all fluffy and easy, we wouldn't be tested, tried or forged in the fire of life. We wouldn't grow or learn to change or we have a chance to rise above ourselves. If there were no rain, then there wouldn't be any feeling of great joy when it finally stopped and we could go to the beach. If it were all easy, we couldn't get stronger.

There will be times when it's an uphill, upstream struggle. We will have to battle waterfalls, dams, and raging currents. But we know we have no choice. If not, we will be swept away.

We should see each setback as a chance to improve. They make us stronger. The struggles don't come to an end, of course. But there are lulls in-between times- backwaters where we can rest for awhile and enjoy the moment before the next obstacle gets thrown our way. That is what life is, what it is meant to be, a series of struggles and lulls.

The Rainbow Connection

2009-11-23T19:34:00.002+08:00

The Rainbow Connection

Why are there so many
Songs about Rainbows
And whats on the other side
Rainbows are visions
but only Illusions
Rainbows have nothing to hide

Whats so amazing
That it keeps us star gazing
And what do they think we might see

Someday we'll find it
The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers, and me

Have you been half asleep
And have you heard the voices
I've heard them calling my name
Is this the sweet sound
That calls the young sailors?
The voice might be one and the same

I've heard it too many
many times to ignore it
It's something that I'm s'posed to be

Someday we'll find it
The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers and me

2009-11-21T00:42:00.001+08:00

That morning, we bid Ivan farewell at the airport. All of us went with a heavy heart. He will be leaving for States due to his air force training, and will only be back two years later.

时间过得真快，一转眼，大家都长大了。我好怀念在中学念书的日子。It is where friendships were fostered, where memories were built. I would often dreamt that I went back to my secondary school for lessons. 难道我太怀旧当时念书的日子？Well, that was 3 years ago, when I was still a naive, quiet, and a soft-spoken adolescent.

3 years had since passed. I am aware of what I want in life now. My hopes and dreams are my source of motivation and that is all that I seek for at the moment.

Ivan: Till then, we will always miss you. ♥

2009-11-19T00:10:00.002+08:00

At the moment when I have decided to unleash the anguish wounds from the past, I was liberated. Freed from hurt, pain, and hatred, I found myself picking up again from an obstacle which stumble me down along the journey of life. I must be really courageous and ready to take on any challenge that comes my way when I let my heart lead the way.

I was hurt deeply once, and hence the hindrance to love. But, he changed my life. Meeting him was one of the happiest and luckiest things that had happened to me. It is a joy to me, a new motivation to face the uncertainty of life. Because of him, I learnt how to accept someone for who he is. I learnt that love requires patience, perseverance and the giving of the heart. I learnt that love is about giving and taking. I learnt that even when I know he is not that into me, I would still hold on just for a glimmer of hope, because I believe. I learnt that once you have fallen in love with that person, you would think of the special someone all the time and wished that he is always by your side. I learnt that once you fall into the sandstorms of love, it is difficult to stand up on your feet again, no matter how hard you tried.

Initially, I felt there were some sparks between the two of us. We were very warm, forthcoming towards each other. But suddenly, the flame just went off. I don’t know what happened. I tried very hard to salvage the situation, but to no avail. You were giving me the cold shoulders on-and-off. I felt we are getting nowhere. I was very upset, disappointed in you. Why must you shatter my heart into pieces when I had just made a big step to piece them up?

2009-11-17T21:24:00.002+08:00

每当我很不开心的时候
我总爱对自己说
这世界不是小小的屋椰
天空好大好远

不经过寒冬哪来梅花香
没有黎明怎么会有曙光
人生的道路崎岖或平坦
还不是要自己去承担

等待天亮期待曙光
将心中阴霾都照亮
假如全世界不再有黑暗
我的生命会不会更灿烂

谁能够只有快乐不悲伤
遇到挫折不沮丧
人生的旅途怎样多变幻
要靠自己的判断

2009-10-25T13:16:00.003+08:00

有一天，一个有智慧的教授问他的学生以下的问题：

" 为什么人生气时说话用喊的? "

所有的学生都想了很久，其中一个学生说: 因为我们丧失了"冷静" ，所以我们会用喊的.

教授又问: " 但是为什么别人就在你旁边而已，你还是用喊的，难道不能小声的说吗? 为什么总是用喊的? "

几乎所有的学生都七嘴八舌的说了一堆，但是没有一个答案是让教授满意的。

最后，教授解释说：

" 当两个人在生气的时候，心的距离是很远的，而为了掩盖当中的距离使对方能够听见，于是必须用喊的, 但是在喊的同时人会更生气，更生气距离就更远，距离更远就又要喊更大声.... "

教授接着说：

" 而当两个人在相恋时会这么样呢？情况刚好相反，不但不会用喊的，而且说话都很轻声细语，为什么? "

" 因为他们的心很接近，心与心之间似乎没有距离，所以相恋中的两个人通常是耳语式的说话，但是心中的爱因而更深，到后来梗本不需要语言，只用眼神就可以傅情，而那是心与心之间早已经没有所谓的距离了. "

最后教授做了个结论:

"当两个人争吵时，不要让心的距离变远，更不要说些让心距离更远的话，自然的过了几天，等要心的距离已经比较没有那么远时，再好好说吧! "

2009-10-03T14:52:00.010+08:00

The greatest challenge in our life is to find someone who knows your flaws and differences and yet still willingly embraces you with so much love. Love is a test of courage, patience, and determination.

She could not remember when is the last time she opened her heart to the door of love. It is tough to step out from the shadows of betrayal, pain, grief of her past. Being haunted by the excruciating memories, she lost the courage to plunge into the sandstorms of love. Then, she was given the chance to fall in love again. She was grateful that fate granted the chance for them to meet each other. She will definitely cherish this golden opportunity that God had bestowed to her.

那天晚上，我和他度过了一个愉快的晚上。用餐后，我们到了东海岸公园散步聊天。我更深入地认识它，了解它。散完步后，他开车送我回家。坐在他车里，我有一种很幸福的感觉，就像我们已成为了一对情侣似的。我多么希望时间能够为我们而停止，因为我不想和他说再见。但是，人总是要告别。最后，我还是乖乖的回家，因为他说他不能够让我的父母为我担心，所以必须早点送我回家。那天晚上是我这一生度过最快乐的一天。我会把那个晚上与他度过的美好回忆刻在心里，因为我想永远拥有与他度过的美好时光。

Iceman, Thanks for bringing colours of hope, faith and happiness into my world, and all the wonderful moments you had brought me.=)

2009-09-24T19:43:00.004+08:00

A group of students werae asked to list what they thought were the present "Seven wonders of the world".

Though there were some disagreements, the following received the most votes:

1. Egypt’s Great Pyramids
2. Taj Mahal
3. Grand Canyon
4. Panama Canal
5. Empire State Building
6. St. Peter’s Basilica
7. China's Great Wall

While gathering the votes, the teacher noted that one student had not finished her paper yet.
So she asked the girl if she was having trouble with her list. The girl replied, "Yes, a little." I couldn’t quite make up my mind because there were so many."
The teacher said, “Well, tell us what you have, and maybe we can help. " The girl hesitated, then read, “I think the 'Seven Wonders of the World' are:

1. To see

2. To Hear

3. To touch

4. To taste

5. To Feel

6. To laugh

7. To love

The room was so quiet you could have heard a pin drop. The things we overlook as simple and ordinary and that we take for grantedare truly wondrous! A gentle reminder - that the most precious things in life cannot be built by hand or bought by man.

My love will get you home

2009-09-15T22:26:00.001+08:00

2009-09-14T20:21:00.003+08:00

I love the outsets, despite the fear and uncertainty that attach to all beginnings. It is another whole new lesson, a different experience to be gained. The first day of my 24-week attachment begins last week. Gone are days where I could have a couple more hours of sleep, and the practice to be late during school lessons. I believe at the end of the 24-week attachment, I will be in the habit of turn-in-early-and-get-up-early routine, somewhat a healthy lifestyle.

As for my job scope, I am required to do daily and weekly reports for them. The reports are fairly easy to accomplish, where I just have to generate data for their analysis and reference. Exclude Mondays, I will be free in the late afternoons on usual days. My supervisor is a very friendly, easy-going person, whom makes me feel at ease when we are having a conversation. My colleagues are mostly friendly, except a few who gives me the kind of who-cares-about-you impression. In a nutshell, I am still enjoying the start of a new life chapter ..

Beginnings are usually sweet, just like the first few months of a relationship which is always, like what others said, the ‘honeymoon period’.

2009-08-28T17:44:00.000+08:00

I personally abhor the feeling for being a "spare tyre". In simple terms, it typically means being a stand-in for situations where the main lead is nowhere to be seen. You are supposed to be their substitute, as demanded. Under such circumstances, I will reject their kind offer, the very "pleasant" thought of them.

I could not say that the people we meet in life are within our control. It is part of destiny, and everything happens in our life for a reason. People who entered our life teaches us lessons as well. However, I simply detest meeting such people in life, who only thought of you when they “need” your help.

I am feeling so disappointed. We used to be as one team. We used to go-all-out to study for common tests, examinations. But things changed ever since you got to know the other clique better. I was so shocked and upset by your transformed behavior. Are we not worth your fun, joy and laughter? Why do you see us as your "stand-in-man" ?

One thing for sure, I will never make someone my priority anymore since I am not even in his list of choices.

2009-08-13T12:32:00.000+08:00

Underneath her masks, her smile, and her dreams, lay someone who finds it difficult to love without hold back. She lacks the heart, the essential factor for an affection to take place. It is difficult to love others through all the walls she had built around her heart from being hurt so much throughout life. On the other hand, she want to love, she want that fun, romance that she see in others, but she is unsure if she can have it in her current circumstances. She find it hard to settle, she you really want to. She needs to find that heart that she has been missing for so long. She needs to love through the pain, but it is just so hard…

2009-08-02T22:45:00.004+08:00

Being in Class A1 is where I belong to in school, a class which truly lights up my life instantly!

It’s a class which I met amiable and obliging friends
It’s a class which taught me the class spirit
It’s a class which made me realize the joy of studying together as one
It’s a class which lent me their helping hands around whenever I am in distress
It’s a class which leaves lots of beautiful memories in me!

17 weeks are simply too short for us to enjoy and "create havoc" in class. All of us will be going for our attachment soon. I will miss everything that we had gone through together. Though we warmed up to each other a little late, I am still contented that our paths crossed each other lives. I am grateful for the “life lessons” some of you had taught me over the past few weeks. I hope that we will still keep in contact even though our paths may be divided into different routes. =D

I MISS YOU, A1!

2009-06-25T23:00:00.002+08:00

Somebody once told me that, “By growing a year older, you are a year wiser.”

This somewhat of a quote had justified itself in the encounters we went through throughout our life journey.

By turning a year older, I ought to think further and made plans for the future.
By turning a year older, I ought to be a filial and obedient daughter and never let my parents worry anymore.
By turning a year older, I ought to study even more wisely and accomplish my goals as promised.
By turning a year older, I ought to lead a more fulfilling and enriching life happily.

Happy Nineteenth Birthday, Hui Ying!

2009-06-16T23:16:00.002+08:00

Today marks the 100th day death anniversary of my maternal grandmother. We went to pay our respects early in the morning.
时间过得真快，一转眼，外婆已去世100天了。有时候，我还真不敢相信眼前的就是事实。也许我还需要时间去适应the changes. 不管做什么事时，偶尔会想起外婆，想着对她的思念。

The demise of my grandmother 让我领悟了许多人生道理。人生是短暂的。我们应该学会欣赏在生命旅途中所路过的美景，学会珍惜身旁所爱与我们爱的人。重的来说，不要等到失去了才懂得珍惜！虽然我很想念外婆，但我会把那一丝思念放在心里的一个角落，努力念书，不让大家失望。

亲爱的外婆，我们永远爱你!

2009-06-04T23:30:00.003+08:00

I could not remember exactly how long we had stopped playing a part in each of our lives. A four year friendship simply dissipates in a minor dispute. It would be a lie if I do not hold any regrets for what had happened.

We were truly best friends back then in secondary school days. We shared our woes, doubled our happiness; laughed and cried with each other. I was grateful to have known such a superb buddy, thankful that our pathways were actually meant to intersect in life. We chose the same diploma and polytechnic. I even ‘fought’ to be the same class as my best friend. We were just like twins, always sticking to each other. It was not when complications start to sets in; when each of us got attached. Due to some issues, she was always sandwiched between her best friend and beloved boyfriend.

One fateful day, it just snapped, like a rubber band. War was declared. People stopped talking to each other. Friends became enemies. Hatred grew to be the concern.

How could I have allowed that to happen? How could I have been so impulsive? How could I have not put myself into her shoes? How could I be such an unreasonable friend? How could I have been such a petty and immature young adult? Even then, nothing could be done to change the fact that we are no longer friends. Initially, I was convinced that friends come and go throughout our lives; parting scenes are absolutely normal and unsurprising. However, when I encountered hurdles in life, I thought of her. She was the only girl friend who knows and understands me well enough; the only one who would motivate me to stand up on my feet back again.

***
I woke up to my senses when I lost my beloved grandmother to pneumonia. That is when I finally understood the fragility of life, the importance of our family and friends. I began to look back and did some evaluation with regards to my life. Being stained with bits of pain, scraps of hatred and patches of regrets, I saw myself wasting my beautiful life away by burying myself in abhorrence and misery. It is time to let go, I suppose.

***

If I could travel back to the past, I would never allow our friendship to have any ending. I would want to carry on narrating our fulfilling and beautiful life stories. I would want to share with my children and grandchildren that, I had such a splendid friend in my life.

If you are reading this, this is for you:

My friend, I am truly sorry for being ignorant and not being sensitive to your feelings. I am sorry for the hurtful and mean words that I had said in the past.

Anyway, I have heard about your updates lately. I hope you will be strong and overcome this challenge courageously. =)

2009-04-16T12:43:00.010+08:00

SEG Orientation 2009 had finally come to an end. It was a physically-draining yet fun-filled event. That explains my presence as an OGL (Orientation Group Leader) for the orientation that was held each year. I personally feel that this is a very good experience for me as I get to interact with more people through this event as well, which somewhat widen my social circle.

As for my freshmen class, I can say that they are mischievous yet obedient. Though they are reluctant to play some of the games, they still listened to us dutifully with our motivation. Throughout the games, I could see that they work together as one. Their team-spirit was commendable and it truly warmth my heart. Because it had proven that my partner and I had done a great job! =)

2009-04-08T10:44:00.004+08:00

林峰 & 泳儿 - 明天以后

泳:在你的记忆里面有一个我
在你最痛苦的时候陪你度过
难过过了天晴朗了我就走

林: 你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留
还来不及对你说
迟到的我的心动

泳:你的好你的坏
林: 我的脾气你最懂
泳:我不要你心疼我(林: 我不要你离开我)
合:明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟

泳:我对你感觉胜过爱情
林: 因为有你给我勇气给我用不完的运气
林: 其实也想好好爱你
泳:只怕到最后不小心让你伤心 (林: 我不怕会伤心)
合: 对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
林: 最后看你在别人怀里
泳:有天我会找到我的唯一(林: 我并不是你的唯一)
合: 还微笑祝福你

林: 你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留
泳:我从来没对你说
压抑的我的心动

林: 我的好我的坏我的脾气你最懂
泳:我不要你来心疼我
合:明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟

泳:我对你感觉胜过爱情
林: 因为有你给我勇气给我用不完的运气
林: 其实也想好好爱你
泳:只怕到最后不小心让你伤心 (林: 我不怕会伤心)
合: 对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
林: 最后看你在别人怀里
泳:有天我会找到我的唯一(林: 我并不是你的唯一)
合: 还微笑祝福你

泳:爱情总让人折磨
林: 所以我们才选择
合: 做比情人更好的朋友

泳:我对你感觉胜过爱情
林: 因为有你给我勇气给我用不完的运气
林: 其实也想好好爱你
泳:只怕到最后不小心让你伤心 (林: 我不怕会伤心)
合: 对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
林: 最后看你在别人怀里
泳:有天我会找到我的唯一(林: 我并不是你的唯一)
合: 还微笑祝福你

2009-04-04T01:20:00.000+08:00

A picture speaks a thousand words. Let them relate my day to you. :D

One word to sum it up : SPLENDID!

2009-04-03T13:07:00.000+08:00

Sometimes When We Touch - Olivia Ong

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Till we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Till we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Till we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

2009-03-27T17:26:00.004+08:00

In an article, “True love: Let’s calculate the odds”, which appeared in this section of the paper on Oct 6, Mr. Michael Kaplan writes of the rarity of true love. Statistically, we may find true love only once in a lifetime, or not at all. Reading on, one realizes he means, by his reference to “true love”, romantic love.

If the only true love one can find in one’s lifetime is romantic love, this does not bode well for people who are single, or the numerous young persons of marriageable age that I interact with in my job, many of whom earnestly seek to find the love of their lives.

While romantic love is what most of us gravitate towards, the happy secret is that true love may be found in other than what the ancient Greeks called eros or romantic love. Eros has been contrasted with three other types of love: philia (friendship), storage (parental love) and agape (God’s unconditional love as understood in Christian thought, or what St Augustine referred to as caritas or charity).

The sad truth, however, is that unfailing or true love of any sort between humans is a rarity in a postmodern world preoccupied with the self, where we are congenitally given to our little goals of making ourselves feel good, and flee at the first sight of trouble in our relationships.

Indeed, our unconscious emphasis on romantic love –seeing how the word “love” has been hijacked for this alone – sometimes belies self-centeredness and the preference for safe investments in that one person who would give love back to us, and who would hopefully prioritize us just as we prioritize him or her.

True, most of us profess that we do not think that romance is all we need. To match our romantic comedies, Hollywood has produced occasional friendship hits such as Stand By Me, Beaches, Fried Green Tomatoes and Simon Birch. But our actions and thought patterns reveal the contrary. Finding one who believes in true friendship tends to be even harder than finding one who believes in true romantic love.

As C.S Lewis once noted: “Very few modern people think friendship a love of comparable value or even a love at all… To the Ancients, friendship seemed the happiest and most fully human of all loves; the crown of life and the school of virtue. The modern world, in comparison, ignores it. We admit, of course that besides a wife and family a man needs a few friends.

“But the very tone of the admission, and the sort of acquaintanceships which those who make it would describe as ‘friendships’, show clearly that what they are talking about has very little to do with that Philia which Aristotle classified among the virtues or that Amicitia on which Cicero wrote a book. It is something quite marginal; not a main course in life banquet; a diversion; something that fills up the chinks of one’s time.

Our downplaying of friendship in adult life is somewhat sad when, from our childhood days, we have had a tendency to veer towards a best friend. Most come to expect less of friends after disappointments and the experience of wanting friendships as people go through different phases of life.

The lack of expectations is not necessarily healthy because it may express a lack of confidence and an unwillingness to commit, in the same way we do not expect anything of an animal in the zoo.

Still, most of us would not have any difficulty describing what we think ideal friendship consists of: Friendship involves free choice and particular persons; it involves reciprocity; the parties participate in it as an end in itself; it involves a commitment into the future; it involves a predominance of reactive rather than detached attitudes.

Of course, there exists friendship of varying intensities: Kants speaks of ideal friendship of disposition, in contrast to those of need or taste; Aristotle speaks of true friendship of character, in contrast to friendship of pleasure or utility. We do not share our deepest secrets with our business associates; we may eat a satisfying burger with an acquaintance, but it is with our best friend that we think of sharing with great relish the description of our discovery of something mundane like delicious food.

That we de-emphasize friendship in adulthood should be a matter of regret, as friendship is potentially a rich relationship in which we experience true love.

In the West, there has long been two prevailing schools of thought about the value of friendship. The first was that friendship met one’s needs for human association and support while the second was that friendship was a school of virtue in which one rises above instinctive self-interest and trains one’s character.

Perhaps neither view is complete. It is loathsome to treat another person solely as the means to satisfy one’s needs, as the friend becomes fungible like wads of cash: one wad is no different from the next; a friend becomes replaceable by another who can meet the same needs.

Nor can another human simply be someone on whom we practice goodness for our own sake, as our focus turns inward to becoming good persons, when perhaps we do the infinite value of our friend justice only when compelled outward, relationally, by the other-directedness of love.

If it is true that love requires self-giving, putting others above one’s self and even laying down one’s life for others, it is unsurprising that we who count interest first in a postmodern world run into immense difficulties giving true love to another human being. As one of my friends wrote even of her best friendship, she has seen “how inadequate Man’s love is, how small our means. Still, as the writer of Sirach, a book of the Apocrypha, wrote: “A faithful friend is a sturdy shelter; whoever finds one finds a treasure”

At the end of the day, statistics aside, we cannot deny that our selfishness is one hindrance to finding true love. We may have all the opportunities in the world to know another person, but until we learn to prefer another, our budding relations will never fulfill their potential. May we remember Emerson’s words, that to form friendship, one must be a friend. To find true love, be prepared first to love.

Tan, Seow Han. "True Love? Look no urther than friendship." The Straits Time, 14 October 2006, Review.

2009-03-14T23:48:00.007+08:00

A tribute to my late grandmother...

My maternal grandparents used to take care of my sister and I when we were infants, until we were in upper primary. My sister and I studied in a school that is just near our grandparents’ house in Bishan. After school every day, we would return to our grandparents’ place and do our homework. They cooked, played and have fun with us. When my parents came back from work in the evening, we would have dinner together. We go back home when night turns in. The next day, it is a routine again.

After that, when my grandfather passed away in 1998, my grandmother took on the role of a grandfather as well and continued to take care of us. It was not only in 2002 that she became ill and was bedridden. Gradually, she lost the ability to speak. It became the responsibility of my uncle and aunt to take care of her, since they lived with my grandmother. My sister and I continued our secondary education in a neighbourhood school in SengKang, a stone’s throw away from our house. As such, visits to our grandmother’s place were rare, and the familiarity with grandmother was somewhat awkward when we pay a quick visit to her during family functions. (Mother’s Day, birthday parties, and the list goes on.) We felt distant towards grandmother. Grandmother looked more lethargic and less radiant ever since she was bedridden. Looking at her, we felt helpless. Besides showing more care and concern, there is nothing much we could do by alleviating the ache and discomfort that bedbound brings about.

For seven long years, grandmother had been lying in bed. She spent most of her time sleeping, throughout day and night. It must have been tough and mundane for her, I suppose. A sense of guilt would overwhelm me at times, when I come to terms that I failed my duty as a granddaughter – staying by her side to talk to her, to help her move her limbs, to take care of her (maybe). Anyway, grandmother was admitted to the hospital last month. She had contracted Pneumonia, lung infection in simple terms. Doctors have diagnosed her illness as a critical and pessimistic case. It depends greatly on her will to battle this war and return home with a victory. During that period, members of the family went to and fro the hospital. We tried our best to let grandmother know that, yes, we are there for her, and that we will never give up on her, no matter what happens. My heart goes out to grandmother when I see that her hands were being pricked with needles, her nose were inserted with tubes. I could not bear the sight of it. Not to mention about the pain grandmother had felt, we, the onlookers felt the pinch as much as grandmother does. All of us were concerned about her condition.

And then, I woke up one fateful morning to learn about the bad news. Our greatest fear had been confirmed. Our dearest, beloved mother/grandmother left us at 7.17am on 4 March 2009 at the age of 85. My heart nearly stopped beating. I was wondering if I was still dreaming. Reality finally sets in when my mother assured me of the news. I felt a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. I did not get to see my grandmother in time before she left. Only my uncle did, in fact. Everyone was busy setting off to school and to work.

We then started to make preparations for the funeral. Due to some issues, we extended the funeral to seven days, instead of five for normal Chinese traditions. Conducts of behaviour were observed during the ceremony. (E.g. No wearing of any jewellery or watch, no watching of television, white top and dark (black/blue) bottoms must be worn at all times). Everyone abide by the rules obediently. We were almost worn out from the sleep-late-and-wake-up-early routine every day. Still, we hang in till the last day of the funeral.

On the seventh day, the nun came and we went through some formal procedure before we send grandmother off for the last time. We reached Mandai Crematorium and Columbarium at 9.30am. The nun repeats the chanting ceremony as we pay our respects to grandmother. All of us were welled up in tears, as we send our last regards to our late mother/grandmother. She was cremated at 9.45am.

In the afternoon, we went to collect grandmother’s ashes and headed straight to some place where we placed her remains there (together with my late grandfather). We prayed and went through the chanting ritual again. We manage to reach home in the evening.

Although grandmother had left us, she will always be our best and loving grandmother. The remembrances that she had left behind will always be locked in our hearts.

亲爱的外婆，你永远活在我们的心中.

2009-02-27T22:47:00.002+08:00

08S2 has finally come to an end. All of us will be going to our respective specialization next semester. Some may feel upset to part with their classmates whom share a close bond with one another while some may feel liberated, joyful to be able to unchain themselves from their freaking classmates.

Sharon is proud to admit that, yes; she is one of those whom have been looking forward to the change of class in the third year of studies. She is finally freed from her abhorrent classmates! No more devious and underhanded people, no more facing sulky and sullen faces, no more being a translucent figure any longer!

As much as how hate fills her heart, Sharon feels grateful to some angels whom have offered help to her during this period of time. Therefore, I would like to extend my heartfelt thanks to the following people for being so kind and helpful.

1) Mr. Toh Tien Loong – The only one whom I look up and respect to in the entire class.
2) Mr. Andrew Huang Jun Hui – The one who is fair and square to everyone.
3) Mr. Lim Chow Shin – The one who used to be my "son". Always helpful and entertaining.
4) Mr. Low Shi Rong – The expert whom would offer to teach me whenever I am in doubt.
5) Mr. Tan Boon Yang – The friendly one, whom would come to chat with me oftenly in class.
6) Miss Sng Sing Nee – The one whom I did labs session with. Ferocious and brutal she may seem, her kind nature has never stopped her from lending a helping hand to others.

In a nutshell, Sharon is liberated! XD

2009-02-11T22:40:00.003+08:00

Sharon is currently away on study break. She will not be updating this blog until the end of examinations.

THANK YOU FOR YOUR UNDERSTANDING! :D

2009-01-23T18:36:00.000+08:00

If there’s an award presentation, I would present the Best Companion Award (BCA) to the following people:

Mr. Dwayne Lee Ming Tang and Mr. Rohan R Raghu Lal

In school, they were my best lecture mates. After school, they were my best friends. They coloured my world when it came crushing down. They brought me joy and laughter when I am down. They spurred me on when I am on the verge of giving up. They gave me a new lease of life. They are my emotional support. They healed my wounds. They teased and made me laugh. Most importantly, I feel a sense of belonging being with them. How more grateful can I be?

Though the three of us may split up to our respective specialization next semester, I will always look back to the days where we had so much fun, enjoyed ourselves so much.

Thank you for everything, my dear pals. <3

2008-12-31T17:00:00.002+08:00

亲爱的朋友，想对你说三个感谢:

第一个谢谢你，让我走入你的生活，做你的朋友，或许我不是你最精彩的，但是我总是尽力做到最好。

第二个感谢你，愿意走进我的生活，扮演朋友的角色，或许你不是唯一的，但却是我生命中精彩的部分。

第三个感谢你，这一路走来，有你很多的包容，安慰，关心，支持与鼓励。

所有的深刻都在你给我的回忆里...

2008-12-31T16:55:00.002+08:00

A new year is nigh and I am gasping for it to begin. Year 2008 was somewhat a roller-coaster ride for me. However, my year of wonders had taught me to let go of the irreversible past and anticipate a vivid future.

I was pleased that I had actually given myself another go at life then. Without my emotional resilience, I would not have done it. Besides, I managed to stand up on my feet once again owing to my good friends. They spurred me on, find time to go out with me amid their busy schedules. They tried their best to change my world which was in debris. They offered advices, laughed and cried with me. Though they did their best to replete the emptiness in me, I jolly well knew that I am the only remedy to my own wounds. Eventually, with their never-say-die attitude, I decided to start my life afresh. To date, I have myself freed from hatred, grief and refusal with regard to that hurdle. Looking back, I felt so proud of myself. I have never thought I would have overcome it. This rich lesson had indeed profited me.

As this year comes to a closure, I would like to thank all of my friends who stood by me during my difficult times. I sincerely hope 2009 will be a smooth sailing year for me, and all of you. May each day of the new year be filled with happiness, success, prosperity for all of us. =)

Happy New Year!

2008-12-14T21:05:00.014+08:00

Today, my family and I took a 30 minute flight up the Singapore flyer to savour the magnificent skyline views, stunning scenery and waterfront architecture. We were offered breathtaking and panoramic outlook of the island city. All of us were busy capturing our best shots in the capsule, as the wheel turns. $29.50 definitely pays off for the joy and pleasure at the end of the ride. A great experience, I would say. ((:

2008-10-09T10:51:00.002+08:00

A Time For Us (Love Theme From Romeo and Juliet)

A time for us, some day there'll be
When chains are torn by courage born of a love that's free
A time when dreams so long denied can flourish
As we unveil the love we now must hide

A time for us, at last to see
A life worthwhile for you and me

And with our love, through tears and thorns
We will endure as we pass surely through every storm
A time for us, some day there'll be a new world
A world of shining hope for you and me

For you and me

And with our love, through tears and thorns
We will endure as we pass surely through every storm
A time for us, some day there'll be a new world
A world of shining hope for you and me

A world of shining hope for you and me

2008-10-07T12:09:00.001+08:00

Angel - Sarah McLachlan

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
Theres always one reason
To feel not good enough
And its hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
Ill find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
Youre in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
Theres vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It dont make no difference
Escaping one last timeIts easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
Youre in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
Youre in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

2008-10-05T22:36:00.002+08:00

This post is specially dedicated to the following people for being such fun-loving colleagues-friends throughout the Robinsons Expo sale.

Chia Chia
Dorothy
Eileen
Jia Cheng
Jolene
Wei Neng
Xiangxyu

This blog entry will be one of my casual posts ever. In the meanwhile, thanks for putting up with the singlish and informality of the language used.

I still remembered the first day that we came together. All of us were so reserved, and we kept to ourselves all the time. However, as times goes, we start to interact with one another and in no time, we got a dress-down from our superior for being far too profuse in chattering. Though we did try our best to show respect for that ‘devil’, we carried on with our grouping ignorantly.

Anyway, all of us were so enthusiastic about guys alright! Almost every one of us has an eye candy, where the eagerness to see them spurs us on for work every single day. I am, of no exception too. haha. There was this guy from Bed linen department (King Koil promoter) who caught my attention. He appears so much like my dream guy, the type of guy whom I yearn to be with. In short, he is my cup of tea. I was totally mesmerized, bewitched by the charm of his disposition. However, the depressing fact is that he is attached. (I got the info from my colleague) So, it is literally hinting me to stop harboring thoughts on him. I did not go over to exchange contact with him apparently, though few of my colleagues seized the chance to do so with their fellow hunks towards the end of the expo sale. Even till now, I could not get him off my mind. I must have a crush on him, I suppose.
Well, I should leave it to fate. As the saying, "What mine will be mine, and what is not will ever be mine."

To Dot & JiaJia: Life is short. Don't hold back in whatever you wish to do. Cherish the opportunity to know him better. hahs. Just go for it, my dear! All the best to the both of you. ^^

Lastly, thanks for the support, encouragement, joy, fun, laughter all of you had bought me. I had never been so hyper and outgoing throughout my life. You guys have changed me quite a lot during this short period of time. It had been my pleasure to work with all of you, my lovely colleagues-friends! Hope we will have the chance to meet up on “sister” birthday.

Till then, take care of yourself, people! =)

2008-10-01T23:04:00.004+08:00

I'll always look back, as I walk away.
This memory will last for eternity,
And all of our tears will be lost in the rain.

So let's take tonight and never let go.
While dancing we'll kiss, like there's no tomorrow.
As the stars sparkle down like a diamond ring,
I'll treasure this moment, till we meet again.

I had always loved the song “Queen of my heart” by Westlife. It would strike a chord in me, and ruffled all my heart. My mind would then be wholly taken up with reminiscences of the sorrowful past. I thought I had gotten over him over the years. It had been a long time though. I realized that I was wrong. When I heard about him on Facebook recently, those feelings apparently surfaced, and I felt bitter deep down in my heart knowing that he had been attached for a year plus. What am I thinking?

We met each other during work back then. Both of us were working in the Bed linen department as promoters, but of different brand. We interacted, and eventually clicked well as time goes. It was a short romance though. We did not get together, despite both of us were having feelings for each other. Our ‘relationship’ was working well, until someday... We drifted apart and ultimately, we are no longer keeping in touch with each other, ignoring the fact that I still hold on to his contact details.
He was avoiding me at that point of time. I have no idea what happened. I felt we had a misunderstanding between us. But due to my shyness, I drew myself back and never went forward to elucidate any misconception. It eventually ended there. Sigh. If I could turn time back, I would do anything to clear those uncertainties between us. I would never let him slip off my hands.
When I opened up my closet and saw those formal wears now and then, he would come to my mind. Those outfit were our ‘uniforms’ when we were working in the Bed Linen fair at Taka Square.

Life is indeed full of regrets. I could not do anything to change what had happened, but to only learn from them as I carry on with my life journey.

Syi, I would never forget the short yet memorable times that we had then. I wish you happiness with her, forever.

2008-09-08T14:44:00.000+08:00

My stay at CP Robinsons throughout the 12 days had been a promising and fulfilling temporary job ever. It is not just about having joy and fun during work, but more on the experiences gained within this short period of time, which boost my self-confidence. Though I got to know a few fun-loving friends, it is however the passion for customer service that stir my feelings to stay even longer. Customers are much polite and friendly over here in Robinsons. They will accept our assistance, and would love our help whenever we take the first step forward.

Most importantly, I had learnt to become a better team player, to be patient and accommodating to the people around me. I could also express myself much better now. I had learnt plenty of lessons indeed. These are great exposures for me, and I will definitely learn from my experience in the years to come.

As I walked out of the building last night, I felt a sense of loss in my heart. I miss you, my dear colleagues. Thanks for making my stay in Robinsons a pleasurable and memorable one.

2008-09-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

When I first stepped into “The Indulge” last evening, I was greeted by the warm attitude of the servers, and the tranquil setting of the restaurant. I was impressed.
Anyway, we sat down and had our orders placed. I ordered Crispy Dory with Fried Rice with a mock tail named Sapphire Dream. I ate my dinner slowly, as I delight in the delicious food served on my plate. The rest had a swift meal though, as they were famished.
To sum up, “The Indulge” is a fabulous place to dine in. It is located at Basement One of The Cathay. A place to unwind, while enjoying the appetizing food? Look no further into The Indulge! It is absolutely worth the trip!

However, that is not tha main point of the gathering. What remains significant is that, I had an enjoyable evening with them. Thanks for the wonderful evening, guys! ^^

2008-09-03T22:15:00.003+08:00

2008-08-26T23:23:00.002+08:00

3 cheers and 3 cheers to 0819...
Hip Hip Hurray!
Hip Hip Hurray!!
Hip Hip hurray!!!

I had a delightful day with my lovely “juniors”. We went to Sentosa for our class outing today. The objective of it is to celebrate two of our friends’ birthday, namely the joker, Edwin and the cutie, YiXin. Besides, it is to collaborate the class bonding with one another. Though not many turn up, the rest of us remained passionate towards this class trip.

We played volleyball, joked around, had the cake cutting ceremony, photo taking session before we waved goodbye to the island. The class went to have their dinner in the evening, while their lovely senior (I am referring to myself) went to attend her piano lesson. (:
The most fascinating of the whole trip is that, a NS guy came to ask for my number. I felt so bashful yet thrilled. It was a strange mix of emotions?

Though they are my “juniors”, some are actually older than me. But anyway, we still belong to one big family. Thanks for this fun and enjoyable trip my lovely 0819! I enjoyed myself so much, and I hope the rest of you do as well. ^^

Happly holidays!

2008-08-26T13:00:00.000+08:00

MY LOVELY 0819 =)
YEAH~

The roses! (:

The jokers.

The guys.

VOLLEY-BALLING

2008-08-24T13:53:00.007+08:00

My family and I went to watch the spectacular fireworks displays at Marina Bay last evening. I was totally mesmerised by the beauty of it. Being seated facing the Singapore River, I watched the dazzling show, as I appreciate the reek of the breezy night. Though it was raining, all of us still managed to keep our smiles on for the sparkling fireworks! It is a pleasure watching the fireworks shooting up high into the skies, especially with accompaniment of your loved ones. Nothing more could describe that breathtaking moment. I felt so joyful for the first time ever since many things happened.

In a nutshell, it was a commendable one. (: [I shall upload the video some other day. =p]

Hiding under the umbrella.

Cheers!

2008-08-22T23:40:00.001+08:00

I had great time laughing on Tuesday night. I met up with Jim, and we had a nice time catching up with each other. We had our supper at a prata house located at Seragoon. Due to his busy working schedule, we had not seen each other for two years. Nevertheless, we keep in contact through SMS and MSN. Our meeting that night was surprisingly hasty. I had always loved our catching up session with one another. He never fails to brighten up my day with a smile, lift up my spirits when I’m down, punctuate each moments with a laugh.

Looking back, I couldn’t forget those wonderful times we spent together at the Super Family Camp 05. It was a family camp organized by my secondary school, which was held at Batam. He was our camp instructor at that time. The 3D2N family camp was just never enough for a fun-seeking person like me, especially when I met this amusing and entertaining instructor. We exchanged contact before parting. Eventually, we became good friends and the story continues even till now…

When he drove me home, I wished we could have stayed a while longer. I wished we had spent the whole night talking and laughing. I wished we could have more time to ourselves. I wished time had stopped for us.

Our memories (:

2008-08-16T01:32:00.002+08:00

冲动- 萧亚轩

很感激这城市拥挤的交通
让你我还能多相处几分钟
人潮中怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松不放松

忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口
忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂

我的心是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我想你的时间不够用
为什么平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我你改变我你是

忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口
忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂

你是情人还是朋友
还没勇气想得太多
你的世界如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落

忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口
忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂

2008-08-06T00:26:00.002+08:00

She stood in a corner, as she peeked at them silently. The basketball court was filled with joy and laughter, merriment and excitement. Once again, her heart sank. She walked away disheartedly and crept back into her own world. She had always been treated as translucent. However, it does not matter to her anymore.

Her heart seems to be anesthetized. She has lost the flame in her heart, the drive to strive on, and the strength to live. Her soul is already dead.

她累了, 是时候放手了...

2008-07-29T20:53:00.002+08:00

It had been ages since I got home so early after school. I am almost fully packed with after-school activities daily. However, today was an exception. I decided to step into the kitchen and touch the frying pan for the first time. Don’t worry, there is absolutely nothing wrong with my mental state. I just have the urge to cook out of the blue. I do not hold much interest in cooking all along and yet actually volunteer to be the chef for an evening. Isn’t that something astonishing? :)
Instead of meeting Serene at the mall, I invited her over for dinner at my house. So I presented my dish named Princess Fired Rice. It tasted not too bad, just was far too salty. Well, it’s my first attempt after all.
But the tragedy is that both of my hands are turning hot and red! It must be fault of those chili paddies. I have been soaking my hands in and out of the iced water for four hours, and it got only a little bit better. I will never touch chili paddy again. I had my lesson learnt today!

Anyway, it was nice catching up with my dear "sister". But sadly, both of us were busy rushing projects after the meal.

It's coming to the end of another day again.

2008-07-27T19:03:00.002+08:00

" It is inevitable that one faces ups and down in the journey of life. Tide it with a smile and everything will be fine. "

Sometimes, we are just unable to smile when tough situations challenged us. Sometimes, we could not stop having ourselves occupied all the time just to prevent ourselves from thinking about our unhappy past. Sometimes we could not help it but steer clear from problems, running away from the harsh reality.
I want to have a good laugh every time when I am upset. But I could not bring myself to laugh. There is always a stone pressing down against my heart, which hinders me from the rays of hope and happiness.

There is simply too much happenings recently. I need some time to calm down and fine-tune my emotions. I need time to heal all my wounds, before I can stand up again. I am blogging now to ease myself from all my frustrations, sorrows and misery.

If I fail to wake up one day, just remember that I will always love you; my friends. =)

2008-07-22T12:52:00.000+08:00

傻瓜

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

2008-07-21T13:27:00.001+08:00

I went out with jun yang just now, and we had a heart-to-heart talk with each other. I did not expect us to hit off rather well. It's our first day out together after all. Anyway, he is a good listener and my heart felt so much lighter after talking to him. He somehow has got power to regain my smile. Thanks for making my day. =)

I believe I am lucky to have comical friends who crossed my path of life. They cheered me up when I am down, they fill each and every moments with joy and laughter, they made me forget those unhappy memories. Most importantly, they just have their ways of turning sad things to something that is amusing, which fascinate me very much.

朋友，谢谢你

2008-07-20T12:30:00.000+08:00

I had this cocktail named "Blue Lagoon" at one of the bars last evening. Below illustrated the fabulous appearance of my drink. Can't really describe how it taste, but it's definitly a thumbs-up! :)

2008-07-19T20:06:00.002+08:00

12 July 08
We spent the night outside, chatting and enjoying night life. I was filled with excitement, as it was my first time spending the night outside. In a nut shell, I just love it. =)

2008-07-19T19:51:00.001+08:00

29 june 08

We went to a dinning place in Pasir Ris Park to "celebrate" my birthday. With my lovely kors around, their jokes just fill each moments and fun and laughter. I could just enjoy and put all my troubles at the back of my mind. It's a pleasure to be out with them.

Dear kors, thanks for everything. I love you!! =)

2008-06-25T11:05:00.001+08:00

Today is a gift of life. Friends ask what my birthday wishes are. I realized that I have been so tied up with schoolwork such that I did not even sit down and have time for myself.

Birthdays, they are meant to be special and happy ones too. However, ever since I started tertiary education, I have lost the joy of having one’s birthday. Nevertheless, my day was brightened up by the greetings of my family and friends.

I do not have much to say actually, but my wish is to do excel in studies, as always. Before my birthday ends, I would like to wish happy birthday to my twin sister as well. Thanks for being there all the time, stay happy always. =)